I’ve never really gone back and read through my past journals. I guess I never really felt a need to. I don’t really write anything profound and It’s not too often I finish and think “Yeah… that was really good!”
Journaling kind of freaks people out. I find it relaxing in a way. A way to re-think about things and process them differently than when you were actually in the moment. I’ve been asked “What do you write?”. I write about events of the day mostly. Seemingly insignificant things. Then my thoughts about those events and activities of the day. That’s how I get started anyways. Then it typically seems to drift to other things. Things I wasn’t even aware that I was thinking. Other times I will read – then ponder & write.
Lately, I have been looking through past journals. I’m not sure why or what I’m looking for. Am I hoping that I will find something? Am I wanting to go back to another place in life?
My life feels out of equilibrium. Unbalanced. Perhaps I am looking for the time where I felt balance. Wondering what I can do to get back there.
This week, I was looking for something cute or a good verse to write on a card. Therefore, I did actually know my reason for looking though a 2014 journal. I stumbled across this:
It stood out to me the first time and I stared at it for a second and moved on. Then I found it again several pages later and thought “Maybe this is a sign. Maybe this is something God wants to tell me right now.” Later – I was cleaning out my office in an attempt to have ‘outer order contribute to inner calm’. I found it again. Written on a sticky note. This time I knew it was surely a sign. He knew I needed to see this. To put my focus back on Him.